I am officially 38 weeks. The point in time when everyone starts saying, "oooohhh any day now huh?" Although I do think I still have at least two weeks left and probably longer. I am blessed (or cursed depending on how you look at it) with a family history of carrying babies past due dates. So I am still in nesting mode and it seems that as soon as I mark one thing off my dry erase board, I think of two new things to add to it. I have been incredibly productive this last week but still have some things that really need to get done. Thankfully, Keziah has decided to enter into a "preference for Daddy" phase. Perfect timing! Since she is content to hang out with him, I'm able to get things done more efficiently. We hope the phase doesn't end soon as it will certainly make things easier for me to recover and bond with the new baby.
We managed to snap a few artsy photos this week. We did this for Keziah's pregnancy too and I love them (link here). I think pregnant women are so beautiful. So as much as I hate having my picture taken, I know I will treasure these in the future.
I actually don't look that big in this photo but that is just the angle. I really do look 38 weeks pregnant in real life. I am blessed to not gain weight anywhere but my belly. I was not blessed enough to avoid the stretch marks this time! But that is what the retouch button on my iPhoto is for! ;)
More importantly than all the "nesting" preparations, are the preparations I am making in my heart, mind, and spirit. With both Keziah's pregnancy and this one, I find myself entering more and more into a calm meditative state as I approach birth and the meeting of this new little one. I find I begin to withdraw from people. I talk less. I pray more. I seem to notice things in nature more. I've found this to be true even with an active two year old! Today Keziah and I sat in the grass and admired acorns for half an hour. I showed her how to take the hat off an acorn and put it back on again. We soaked up sun. We were both at peace. I anticipate these moments becoming more frequent in the weeks ahead. One of my favorite things to meditate on is a little poem I stumbled upon toward the end of Keziah's pregnancy. I find myself reciting this in my head often these days. I will start to say it aloud to the baby soon.
Frail newborn wingsSmall voice that singsNew little beating heartDread not thy birthNor fear the earth -The Infinite thou art.-Richard LeGallienne