Tuesday, January 13th started as any normal Tuesday. We got up early to take Keziah to preschool. On the way I was thinking of the chores I wanted to get done that day. I had spent the day before vacuuming the van and getting car seats rearranged and installed. And I had gotten the birth tub and all my birth supplies organized and ready to go. That night I had sent a text to my mom that I was officially ready for baby. We joked that I still likely had a couple of weeks. And that was fine with me because there were still so many things I wanted to do. The past month was a whirlwind of activity and "survival mode" kind of living. Besides all the holiday hustle, the kids had battled a long bout with hand, foot, and mouth disease, and Michael Paul had battled the flu for a long week. Everyone was finally on the mend and I was hoping for a couple of calm, uneventful weeks to emotionally and spiritually prepare for the new little one. Most days I had been so busy, I forgot I was pregnant, and I didn't feel as bonded to the baby as I wanted to be. As I drove home from dropping Keziah off, Reuel asked if we could play "Giddys" (horses) when we got home. I suddenly had this gut instinct that baby was going to come that night. Of course I quickly dismissed the thought: Yeah right! me? Go early? Ha! I will at least go to my due date, I said to myself. Still, I suddenly felt as if I should blow off chores and spend the day giving the kids lots of one-on-one time.
I spent the morning playing with Reuel and then picked up Keziah from school. She wanted to play paper dolls and I continued to resist the urge to mop my floors and instead played with the kids. I noticed some Braxton Hicks contractions and lower back pain on and off throughout the day, but didn't think much of it. I had been having the toning contractions for months anyway. The back pain was new but I attributed it to vacuuming the van and fighting car seats the day before. In retrospect, I believe I was probably having some early back labor.
At 2:45 the kids asked me to put their swinging bar up. As I pulled down on the bar to lock it in place, pain shot through my back. I looked at Michael Paul and said, maybe the pregnant lady shouldn't do this. As he got up to fix the bar for the kids, I walked into the kitchen and my water broke. Uh oh! I waddled into the bathroom and called my midwife, Sara. She was shocked I was calling her. She really wasn't expecting me to go for another couple of weeks. I told her how I strained myself on the kids' bar and I was afraid I caused my water to break and it was too early. She assured me my baby was healthy and would be perfectly fine to be born now, even if 39 weeks felt "early" to me. As we talked I started having some mild contractions. They were pretty close together, but very very mild and short, certainly not active labor. We made a plan for her to come over around 6:30 to check on me and the baby. In the mean time, I just needed to monitor my temperature and the color of my water for signs of infection, and to call her if I did start having stronger contractions.
Immediately my controlling nature started forming a plan. First I called my family and told them to get on the road. I decided to go ahead and spend the afternoon making ice cream with the kids, then having family movie night as we had originally planned. I didn't want them to suspect anything was going on. I figured I'd continue to have mild contractions and then after kids were tucked away in bed and sleeping soundly, I'd go into active labor and have the baby in the night before they woke up. It was a perfect plan. Ha! Well, Baby had a plan of his own.
From 3:00-5:00 things continued as planned. We made ice cream. I started dinner. Michael Paul got out his special 1860's pocket watch from his grandfather that he has used to time contractions for all three kids. They were consistently three minutes apart. But they were very short and mild, more like menstrual cramps. I knew from Keziah's birth that things could go on like that for hours and not really cause any progress. At 4 I became hyper sensitive to the noise and constant requests of the kids. The usual chaos of life with a 2 and 5 year old was somehow amplified far beyond my usual tolerance levels. I decided to start family movie night early and put the Lego Movie in for the kids.
As I sat down to snuggle them, I realized I was in a pretty negative state of mind. I didn't feel ready for this baby. I had had no time to spiritually and emotionally prepare for this baby. Suddenly I began to have some major anxiety. What if the baby was too early? I thought of all the sickness that had surrounded me for a month. What if I had an infection? I began taking my temperature every 10 minutes out of paranoia. I knew I had to clear my head so I grabbed my stress away oil and rubbed some on my neck and head. The kids were quiet and happy that I was watching the movie with them, so I leaned back and closed my eyes and focused on my breathing. Suddenly all my positive affirmations began to come back to me and eventually my peace returned. Dinner was done at 4:30 so we fed the kids and I was able to eat as well.
5:00 rolled around and I started cleaning up the kitchen. At some point a contraction hit and for the first time I had to stop what I was doing and breathe through it. A few minutes later another one hit. Michael Paul walked in and said something. I didn't respond. He said, "that looks like a real contraction." When it passed I said, "I think we better call Sara back. I don't know if I want to wait until 6:30." The next contraction hit and a sing-songy moan escaped my mouth. Alright, it's for real now. I heard Michael Paul on the phone with Sara, "Jennifer says to come now." Then to me, "She's already on the road - she had a feeling she should just go ahead and come." I headed upstairs. According to his phone, that was 5:27.
Michael Paul and the kids followed me. I leaned against the bed as Michael Paul rushed around trying to get the birth tub set up. In between contractions I was barking orders to him. I'm sure I was not at all polite. But I knew things were happening fast and I was desperate to get in the water. The kids were incredibly calm. They were stroking my arm and rubbing my back. Occasionally Reuel would say, "it ok mommy." I actually found their presence comforting and was glad this was happening before bedtime. Another contraction hit and I suddenly felt nauseated and the thoughts of "I can't do this, I can't do this" flooded my brain. And I knew those were tell-tale signs of transition. Holy Cow! Am I in transition?! I got to the tub. My best guess is this was around 5:35.
Thank goodness for good water pressure! The tub was filling up fast. But we were struggling to get the temperature right. I kept telling Michael Paul, too hot, too cold. He was in the bathroom trying to adjust the water but we had 50 feet of hose for water to travel before I could tell if it was a good temperature. So that was frustrating. But still, contractions in the water were so much more tolerable. Water birth is definitely as awesome as everyone says it is! Finally I realized the water temperature was good enough and didn't matter because I had the urge to push.
I pushed once and reached down to feel the crown of baby's head. But I did not want to tear so I forced myself to stop pushing and breathe through this contraction and allow myself to stretch. I held my baby's head in place and massaged the 'ring of fire'. I knew I had to get Michael Paul's attention but I just could not speak in that moment. He was still in the bathroom trying to adjust the water and his back was to me. I'm sure he had no idea how close we were. When that contraction ended, I could only catch my breath and with the very next contraction I pushed the baby all the way out into my arms.
"Michael Paul!" "Michael Paul!" He turned around to see me sitting in the tub with baby in my arms. Somehow I had the presence of mind to look at the clock and note the time, 5:48. Almost immediately baby started crying and he was pinky-red from head to toe, so I knew he was perfectly fine. Michael Paul started frantically going through the birth supplies asking where the suction bulb was. "We don't have it," I said, "Sara brings that and we don't need it anyway. Look at him! He's breathing and crying just fine." I announced it was a boy (we hadn't found out the sex ahead of time). And Reuel immediately noticed, "he have penis like me!" The kids were standing by the tub just smiling and in awe.
I wasn't bleeding at all and so we all just sat tight and enjoyed the moment. Michael Paul called Sara and his first words were, "it's a boy!" She laughed and said she knew she wasn't going to make it. A couple minutes later Sara arrived. They helped me out of the tub and into bed. At 6:14 I delivered my placenta. All the postpartum stuff was real easy this time. No tearing meant no stitches. Yay! And I only lost about 350 cc's of blood (I lost 800 with the first two). It was so weird because I didn't feel like anything had happened. I didn't even feel exhausted or hungry. After all, I had just eaten dinner an hour before. Sara made the comment that she didn't think my body had figured out that I had given birth. Everything pretty much went back to normal almost immediately.
Michael Paul cut the cord with the special knife he bought for the occasion. Then we all celebrated with the ice cream we had made that afternoon. We made some phone calls, which of course were very amusing. Mom: "hi, we're on the road. how are things going?" Me: "Oh fine, the baby's here." Mom: "WHAT!"
We finally got the camera out and got some pictures. And Solomon got his newborn exam. 8 pounds, 12 ounces. 19.5 inches long. And absolutely perfect!
Cutting the cord
8 lbs 12 oz
So in summary:
2:45 pm: water breaks.
5:00 pm: active labor starts.
5:48 pm: two pushes and baby is born into my arms.
As we cuddled in bed that night, Michael Paul made the observation, "Well, we've had three wonderful home births. The first, our midwife caught the baby. Our second, I caught the baby. And our third, you did it all on your own! That's pretty cool!"
While I certainly would never plan on having an unassisted birth, I have to admit, catching my own baby was an experience that is simply beyond words. And for our little family of four to become a family of five, just the five of us in that room - in that moment - there are no words for such a treasure - just a treasure to store up in my heart for all time.